A friend texted me today, saying she has baby fever and hopes her birth control will fail so she can have a baby. She asked if I ever feel that way. Well, yes, I do. About once a month, I have to wrestle with the deep reasons in my heart and talk myself back into continuing to use birth control. Because I just can't bring myself to believe that pregnancy is the right path for us. Because there are too many children who aren't wanted. And if I produce another one, what if that means one less child will be adopted into our family because one more child was born into my family?
I don't think that's the answer for everyone. Every child born into this world is a result of God's will. You end up with however many children God has planned for you, one way or another. And if God wills that I give birth at some point, we would rejoice in His will. Nothing is stopping Him from bypassing some silly birth control...as if we're in control.
So many of my friends and family members are expecting babies soon, and I am thrilled for them! I can't wait to cuddle those new babies, knitted together in my friends' wombs. I just really wish all babies born into the world were as wanted and celebrated as these.
I want to bring more children into my family who are unwanted by their biological families. It's a struggle.
Not everyone is called to adopt, but I am.
"Jesus said, 'Let the little children come to me and do not hinder them, for to such belongs the kingdom of heaven.'" Matthew 19:15
I don't think that's the answer for everyone. Every child born into this world is a result of God's will. You end up with however many children God has planned for you, one way or another. And if God wills that I give birth at some point, we would rejoice in His will. Nothing is stopping Him from bypassing some silly birth control...as if we're in control.
So many of my friends and family members are expecting babies soon, and I am thrilled for them! I can't wait to cuddle those new babies, knitted together in my friends' wombs. I just really wish all babies born into the world were as wanted and celebrated as these.
I want to bring more children into my family who are unwanted by their biological families. It's a struggle.
Not everyone is called to adopt, but I am.
"Jesus said, 'Let the little children come to me and do not hinder them, for to such belongs the kingdom of heaven.'" Matthew 19:15
